Haven't logged in for a few days. I have not been able to log in at work due to some setting they have and that used to be where I post from.
I also feel like I am allowing the forums to consume my life... Rather than spending time with my family and those around me in person, I am spending time on various forums and such living a life on the internet. I love this forum and everyone here, but at a time like this, I need to show those I am closest with (in person) that I appreciate their support and come together as one to get through this.
I am in no means vanishing, just wanting to spend more time with mainly my girl and showering her with attention because it is going to be hard for her to see me in a bed with a breathing tube for a few days and I know when I am conscious, she is going to be the only person on my mind, and I need to make sure she knows how much she means to me...
I broke down a but this morning. Honestly, I was scared. I mean, we are going to be starting our life together with me in the hospital. I am scared that she may not feel the same about me, that our love will dwindle, that we just won't be the same... That is what sparked my thoughts about spending more time with her.
Training going freaking awesome!
I caught some perfect lighting at our one gym, so I took advantage of. Just enough sweat plus perfect lighting LOL